letting the worst people of my life go

So there's a list of people that hurt me at random points of my life. I just have to let them go, so I'll pretend I am writing short messages to them.

To my first "boyfriend" (I don't count 1-2 months of relationships until 17 year of my life as relationships): thank you for being kind to me, and fuck you for breaking my 11 y. o. heart.

To my second "boyfriend": I hate that you tried having sex with me while I was only 11. I hate even more that you told all school that I HAD sex with you and I got fucking bullied so I had to change school.

To my third "boyfriend": I hate you for locking my 13 y. o. ass in your apartment to have sex with me (we haven't had sex, he let me go). You were the first one that made me feel like I'm not enough.

To my first boyfriend: I hate you for making me hate everything about myself, because I wasn't beautiful enough for you. And I hate you for making me think, that having sex while not wanting it it's okay.

To love of my life: I hate you for being with me only when you needed that, I hate that I loved you so much I was ready to die.

To my second boyfriend: I hate you for making me feeling not enough to be loved and heard for 2 years.

To my first ever best friend: I hate you for bullying me, because I'm too much.

To my parents: I hate you for taking my childhood and teenage years from me. (I still love you so much)

Yes, I chose those people in my life. But there's no excuse for this behavior. I didn't deserve to get those experiences. But I'm thankful that these things made me myself.