love in june

love has been so cold. love has been so warm. love has been so fox. love has been so poor. love has been so lark.

love enlightens. love fades. love shifts. love deepens. 

humans evolve through the lens of their shortcomings. humans adore love. every living experience seeks love. 

the world has shaped me to think of love in limited ways. love still has to grow. the words of love. i admire love. i adore love. i worship love. 

june. the month of our love feels small. contained. fading. never talked about this before but it hurts so much so i talk. couldnt feel the spark anymore. 

"love is patient." speak the tongue of god.

try so hard to live by that. patience feels pointless when im the only one being it. hes become so hard to understand. im exhausted from trying to carry the weight of his chaos. tired of talking. tired of trying. 

so i keep asking gods.

can love exist controlling?