Terrible day

Today is one of those, many days i've experienced where i do not only feel tired from everyone else, but also just directly stressed and in a terrible mood

I do not wish people to interact with me, nor interact with people either, nobody calls My attention anymore, except for a couple ones that i do enjoy talking with, and yet i just feel socially irritated enough to also not want to talk with them

I don't want to be rude, they're My Friends, but sometimes i just want to be alone

I do have to recognize that this is nothing but the frustration of not being able to be with a person i really want to be with, and not being able to find them in any of the people i speak to, as if i were hoping to be able to build something like what i Saw in them with many different pieces from different sources, but te result is nothing but a bastard, crude, chimeric image that pathetically tries to emulate something i once loved, and i still love, which image still remains intact in my mind and My heart 

Like as if i were trying to replicate a beautiful piece of work with a collage of different artworks that have nothing in relation between them 

I miss you so much, i'm sorry