I miss you, I miss him

Eyden,

  If you're seeing this, (for some reason even though I blocked you on multiple platforms) I really really do miss you. If you have ever had it cross your mind, I DID like you. I yearn for you till this day. I'm really sorry for making you feel uncomfortable around me if you ever felt like that. And I'm sorry for not being mature enough to give you a chance at being someone who could've been in my life a bit longer. I kept waiting for your signs but I kept going delusional over them, and I'm probably getting even more delusional as I type this. You see, I just had the stupidest thing a girl like me could want from you: hope.  I thought that I was somebody to you, or someone that could've sprouted butterflies in your stomach like how I did but I guess that I was wrong. If there was a bigger phrase or word for "I'm sorry and I miss you", then I'd say it. I'm being really corny right now but I guess that I just need an outlet for being a burden to everyone and talking about you. 

If anything, I wish the best for you right now. I want you to take care of yourself, no matter how much you hate yourself.