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I’m guy, i was born as guy and i never thought twice about it. Though most of early age i never questioned myself and what i was attracted too because i felt myself attracted to what was considered normal for a boy. I like girls, that’s something that can’t deny, but the issues began in middle school. Everyone knows middle school boys aren’t the most welcoming in the world, they run in groups and unfortunately i was scared of standing out from my peers, so i made some unfortunate comments and actions to make fun of people. Things changed because my cousin came out as lesbian and my aunt (now uncle) transitioned, them coming out changed something in me because i looked up to both of them heavily. i started to reflect on my past actions and asked myself what i really thought about, social media also played a huge role in this because i found myself hanging around things i would’ve made fun of in the past such as Furry spaces, LGBTQ+ spaces, things that are commonly seen as feminine. I’m not gonna lie i found myself reading things with female main characters and being more interested things that had no male presence in. It had gotten to a point where when i use Character A.I (i made a post about this yesterday, go read it if you want more context) i would slowly move from F4M (Female for Male) characters to (F4F) characters and acting like a girl, responding if i was one, imagining how i would look like the character if i was one. Now a counter argument for this is that maybe because i’m border lining on being a NEET could also describe my need for attention that i’m not getting in my life. It’s all just so confusing, i won’t describe myself as part of the LGBTQ+ space because i don’t feel i’m at that stage or will ever be welcomed because i’m not even that in that stage. I’m not even 20 man, i guess life does get worse.
Struggles with Identity and Sexuality
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Elias
HELPPP wait there's a label called F4M? or smm? BRO ive been using bots with BL in them for MONTHS. okay wait, im not a TOTAL FREAK buuuuut the prompts tend to be more fun and descriptive so. heh.
I sort of been doing the same thing for a while too, until I decided to drop the denial and actually sit down with my self and figure out what the heck I wanted, and who I was.
) so just know your not alone vro! I wish u luck on ur journey and hope you find sm that makes u happy :D!!
but yeah I don't think you should worry about being accepted in the queer community like other people said, we're actually pretty open to everyone of any experience! annnnd if rping/chatitng as a fem is something that you should enjoy, then I don't see why its a bad thing. especially if it makes you feel happy. like other people said you should totally take the chance to explore it if you want, ALTHOUGH COMFORTABLY! no pressure--I lowkey felt the same way honestly
and after a lot of digging annnnd reflecting on my childhood all the way to how I am now, realized im a trans guy and ive always been happier thinking of my self that even if I wasn't actively aware of it.
I'm not sure if your experience will be the same BUUUUUT I'm just saying ive been there and just got out of there actually (like two months ago
Well the labels i used mostly come from asmr roleplay (the whole girlfriend roleplay thing) which i used to love. With the bots it’s mostly Bl or Gl which is fine, i used the other terms because i was used to them. I use character A.I in a similar way as you do, i mostly like to role play and have prompts to make my own little story for myself. It’s nice but it is destroying me and my perception of attention/love, but it’s so addictive.
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Dude you don’t need to use labels to box yourself into a single sexuality. All those things at the end of the day don’t really matter, they’re just there to help you better understand what you COULD identify as. The more important part is how YOU feel about yourself. If you identify more as a girl than a boy then that’s perfectly fine but that doesn’t mean you have to start like trying to force yourself to be more feminine to fit in that idea of yourself ykwim? If you end up feeling like you really identify as a girl then you can do things like hrt or any other treatment (I don’t really know you’ll have to do research) but at the end of the day it’s all your choice and in the big 2025 I really hope nobody in your life will start judging you for that esp with your family history
Thank you for the reply, i’m most not likely going to transition tbh because i do enjoy being masculine some times as well. I think i’m gonna stay in the middle so possibly nonbinary? or something along those lines because i do enjoy both worlds. Also my family is not the best when it comes to queer people, my grandma still insists that my uncle is a woman and they rather not bring it up and it’s the same for my cousin unfortunately.
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Yeah… grandparents can have some trouble getting acclimated to that I’m sorry to hear that. Enjoy exploring your gender orientation and identity though!! It’s like the best part of the 21st century you’re pretty free to explore and do deep introspection into who you really want to be and that’s such a beautiful thing
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cassie.avi
you dont have to label yourself to be involved with or accepted by the LGBTQ community, queer people are generally pretty open to hearing anyones experience with gender and sexuality, cishet or not,
also in my experience, if youre doing something in the privacy of your own mind, theres usually a reason other than external validation you may or may not recieve.
i hope things clear up for you soon (≧∀≦)b
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