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My guardian, my leader, my role model.
I never questioned the screaming. Broken pieces cascading onto the tile, waiting to be sweep and cleaned, only to be ignored.
I never batted an eye as we ran home and stuffed away our house in only a few boxes.
I never asked where daddy was, because, who's that?
I never stopped listening, working endlessly to make you happy. Enduring the shouts, the digs, the never ending fighting.
I never stood up to you as you took the only thing that numbed it all.
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After all, you were my guardian, my leader, my role model.
I look up from the table, my lips pressed into a cold line. My shoulders tense and my eyes detached. My long hair sliding down my shoulders, providing a curtain, hiding my tears from her condescending eyes.
I never asked, why. Why would my guardian, my leader, my role model try to break me down until I gave up and stayed silent, knowing I'll never be able to be enough.
But, I already knew the answer.
How could a million pieces stick themselves back together to raise a child? They cant. All she can do is work with what shard she had left, even if it left me bruised and crying.
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Now when I look at the woman who raised me, I don't see my guardian, my leader, my role model.
I see a woman who's a broken as could be, just like me.
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Stiles
this is so good omg i love how you write
thankk youu so much
by jenny; ; Report
tobi
the first part hits hard since my parents always fought with eachother on the fact they didn't love eachother only together for me and my siblings
Blank_driver
god damnit that last line came and hit like a truck, its amazing reflective in away
also its hard watching those who you idolized fall from their pedelstals, but i think that just means you can finally see them as humans and like all humans, they are flawed
yeah its tough, but when I realized my parents were just human, like everyone else I think its easier to understand WHY they do the things they do, the bad and the good. It lets you think of them as a human, not the high expectation of a mother or father
by jenny; ; Report
EXACTLY, its kind of a sad but a necessary thing to get to realize.
by Blank_driver; ; Report
and its sad because some people are never able to recognize that their parents are PEOPLE and not just 'parents'.
by jenny; ; Report
i think it goes both ways, of both parent and child cant see the other as a person then they never can connect on a deep level. but yeah its sad asf
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