sleepy day 12/2/21

i thought i would do better today but i fell asleep around 2pm, slept on and off until almost 6. i was confused because i actually slept at night earlier and woke up and was active at 6am, but then i realized i went to sleep at like 1 or 2am so i didnt get ENOUGH sleep.

its so annoying, i keep getting the right amount of hours, but at the wrong time. i can never get my sleep schedule right ever since i was a kid. its gets so frustrating sometimes :(

i did some thinking about my birthday coming up while i was awake, though! still dont have many ideas on what to do but i think thats okay. i tend to be lowkey with birthdays anyway. i keep getting slightly stressed though because my mom keeps trying to ask me about events or concerts i'd want to go to and i just cant name any. im not good at telling people what i want and i dont really know what i want or what im thinking most of the time.

despite my venting i think today was alright. last night i played minecraft with my friends for the first time in FOREVER! it was great to be back in that world. i finally started building my own house, i've been living in a stolen villager house this whole time. we live in a nice spruce biome right next to a swamp, im building my house on the shore because i love fishing :] i did some planning in a creative world today and i'll probably regret choosing deepslate bricks for the roof >_< but whenever i make a house outta spruce i struggle with roof colors. i want the roof to be darker but dark oak isnt very available.

i gotta find a minecraft forum or something. there isnt a video games category here :(

(edit: i have found viddy games in the games category, hell yeah)

but yeah. didnt do a whole lot today but i did eat all three meals which is EXTREMELY rare. i had cereal and toast for breakfast, eggs for lunch, and a chicken sandwich for dinner! very cool.

food of the day: bread

song of the day: man i didnt really listen to anything today... last song i listened to before going to sleep last night was pumpkins scream in the dead of night by savage ga$p. the one with shinigami that was popular on tiktok