blogging on my uncle's laptop

I am coming to you live from my Uncle Mark's HP pro laptop here in Tarnow, yippee!

Yippee because I'm getting to see my uncle and grandad and Tarnow is a wonderful city and it's very sunny and I've spent almost all day out and about, shopping, getting me hair done (pooks message me if u wanna see me hair + what I bought), got somat to eat weith my mum, and then charged my phone up at the bus stop while my mum waited for a bus back to the village, and then I walked back up here to my grandad's flat. 

I needed to leave that village. I actually started freaking out a bit, because there really is absolutely nothing to do there if you don't know anyone. It's like, here I don't have LOADS to do and I still don't have any friends but at least I've got the city with the (really really good) thrift shops and my uncle's laptop and a bed of my own. And also my uncle with whom I can have some rlly nice deep convos (my grandma just gossips with my mum about people I don't know - fair enough but also I don't wanna sit around doing nothingf while they sit chatting about Basia and Asia and Gosia and Anka). And also my little cousin!!!!! I love going big sister mode with her. She was here yesterday and she';ll be here tomorrow. :)

But yeah, I was freaking out because you know I've booked in a MONTH'S worth of holiday here, and it just dawned upon me that I'll really have fuck all to do....... so I began considering coming back to England for a bit. I was gonna maybe book a flight on the same day Kate's going home, and just be in England from the 16th to 26th June. My dad's coming here on the 26th June, and he's gonna take me to Budapest, and I don't wanna miss out on that. 

But yeah, having spent two days in Tarnow I'm feeling much more fulfilled. I kind of don't wanna leave after this weekend :( 

So maybe I'll stay as long as my mum's staying and then go back with her, but then I'm only home for.. 5 days. Five days in England, is it worth it? I could see Sam and Kate and maybe even Millie if she co operates with me (6u6)

What do u think? Shall I go back this weekend or the next or not at all? 

I can afford the tickets. They're about 100 pounds there and back with trains included. So not horrific. But 100 pounds for 10 days in England? 100 pounds for 5 days in England? I don't know. It would break up my loneliness here a bit, I feel like by the end of week 2 I'll be  a little sick of Polonia. 

I hate how indecisive I am. Why can't I EVER just pick one thing and then stick to it???????????????

My mum wants me to get the plane baclk with her, but I think that's mostly because she hates flying alone. That WOULD mean that I can also work a few days in England... Kate also thinks that makes sense, and it helps her out becvuase then I'll be taking her old ticket (but doesn't changing the name on the ticket cost like 60 pounds?) - Angie and Sam would like me back as soon as possible. Especially becuase Angie could be in HUdds on Monday bc she's visiting her BF who lives near us that weekend.................................................................................................

tell me what to do tell me what to do tell me what to do tell me what to do