Attention

Man, I wish I could just stop caring

I'd say I'm a bit of a fraud when I admit I'm willing to stand out and be myself

I'm a people pleaser by heart, and I can't stop doing it, not only because of how much I like the attention I receive from it, but because I constantly feel indebted to everyone over every small gesture

I have to do something to service them in a way, even if it pisses myself off

The only thing that can distract me used to be the fandoms and media I find myself in, stuff like Tally Hall, Nice series like Kevin Spencer, Dick Figures, Ongezellig, Eddsworld, and so on, but I'm scared I'll end up using these interests as a way to get people's validation rather than because I genuinely enjoy it as good pieces of art

The last thing I wanna be isa trend hopper, no matter how much of a fraud I am

Sorry for venting, but then again this is my blog, lol

Hope no one minds :p