You know what? fuck it.

It's taking WAY too much effort and time to try to recover from my mental health issues only to end up relapsing and going right back to where I was before, and I don't have anyone to talk to anymore. 

I'm just gonna become a hikikomori now, it's really the only thing I got going for me (I'm already a NEET, might as well become a shut in while I still can.)