mondayz

it's just the tragic reality that there isn't enough time in the day to get everything done. work takes up way too much mf time and it really sucks!! not my cousin just randomly showing up at my house. here goes that disenfranchised guilt or whatever my therapist was talkin about... imagine if things were different and my bf had been working with him all this time and we had been going to hawai'i together and sourcing and stuff and just sadness and wishes. whatever though i know wishing is pointless and it gets you no where but it's hard not to imagine all the possibilities. of course hindsight is 20/20 but it's a good argument for just doing things outside of yr comfort zone and just not being a lazy little turd lmao which is what i am. i know it's just my cousin he's seen where i grew up in lmao but i felt embarrassed by the messy ass house. i need to get things clean and then actually come up with a cleaning schedule i can follow. i know yall hate millennials for saying "aDuLtInG iZ hArDd xD" but it's true just wait an see children.