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time passes pretty freaken quick and its pissing me off, i mean i turned 18 this year and im already drinking to keep myself from thinking too much about how much time i have on this shit hole of a planet. i feel the need to distract myself constantly with either smoking, drinking or music. i miss having a peace of mind and not having to worry about anything, not school work, not about where im going to get the pocket change for my next pack of camels and not even job applications. why does it all have to pass by so quick? i think me pretending im upset about time passing by is me ignoring the fact that i feel that ive wasted the time ive had, sounds bullshit cuz im only 18 ik but still.
idk its like a consuming void ive been getting in and out of ever since i was 12, its always the same shit. atp my whole life feels like deja vu, ive done all the fucked up shit i can and i just keep coming back... but anyways life moves on, either you move or stay behind and rot away. alone.
Scared of tomorrow
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☆Lucifur☆
U wanna try sleeping? Js kidding, ur fr abt that. Nothing we can do abt it, it's worse and it will only get worse, exams? Just in a few years you would've already forgotten abt that and would have another bigger thing which becomes less worse compared to the next months after that. The next morning is an uncertainty, procrastination becomes a habit till hw and tasks pile up till it's exhausting to even start but ur here typing out how u feel. I'm proud and happy u got up and dint slept ur days away rotting, resting in a dim room on your bed and staring off to space or maybe u did. Nothing wrong with that, it honestly feels...idk empty and at the same time alot but in a good way. js don't lay on your side all the time, ur face may not be symmetrical after a few years <\3 Luv u unit ( ≧∀≦)/
"ur face may not be symmetrical after a few years" im rolling omfg
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also thank you, love you too lulu（づ￣3￣）づ╭
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D-dazai?...ehem anyways heh np, take care <3
by ☆Lucifur☆; ; Report
𝔑𝔬𝔞𝔥
You need to pray my man, it gets easier it just takes time. You can talk to me if you want
thank u<3
but praying wont help if i dont actively get my shit together, its something only i can change
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