wanna scream for six hours

yeah what the title says just wanna scream for a really long time i feel like i have so many pent up emotions like anger and sadness and guilt and depression and anxiety and hopelessness and sorrow and yeah idk i feel like it’s making a really nasty soup inside of me :(

going to start rambling more often because like why not. i had to cancel my appointment today the cramps were just too bad but it’s almost over and i wanna get back to exercising and cooking ugh i need to take the time to make healthy meals and actually enjoy it and not feel like it’s a huge waste of time babe you deserve it! like my new mindset is a smokey bear vibe only i can prevent my depression lmao like i’m the only person who can change anything the placebo affect and manifestation are real so just get better because you can and are going to! yeah that sounds convincing let’s do it babe