i hate april and june and everything in between/summer's ending now

seriously i always get way too depressed around this time of year. not sure why. it feels like every mistake i make accumulates and then gets dropped right back down onto my head during these months. 

oh well. summer's gonna rip this year. i got a feeling. 

my heart is beating but i'm hardly alive. 

something about pushing everyone away feels so comforting but i hate myself for it when it's done. 

reminds me of something else. too bad i can't say it on here. 

i think the idea of ever being in a relationship again genuinely makes me sick. 

i think that's why i always push you away.