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Again I'm not that satisfied with myself that much! I'll a sign me a job, a task, and a deadline, but that deadline isn't really that serious! Just to make me feel anxious when it's getting closer, and anyone can ruin it! Somebody can say, let's go there, and I'll have to, I cannot go against it! I can't save myself by talking it out, I don't know how to argue, my opinions always get forgotten, or removed, or looked over! So whenever they invite me to something, I can never decline it! Some argument sparks up in the dinner table and I'm trying to defend a family member, I'll be shoosed off! You're just a kid! So, I'm still conscious, I can assume your intentions, knowing damn well I'm wrong! I need to finish this blog to go finish my homework then go finish a drawing or at least the sketch then I'll go doom scroll for a bit to forget about all of this, to waste my day till it is a moment before midnight, that's when I'll go to sleep!