I won't.

I'm Genderqueer and Lesbian.

There is no part of me that wishes to play the game of "gender". I don't much care for it. I spent so long wearing a mask, forced to be what someone else wanted of me.

It's tiring.

Now, I follow the beat of my song.

I might be a depressed goliath of a creature, but I refuse to let anyone tell me how things are going to be.

I've spent the majority of my life being abused, mocked and pushed into corners I never wanted to be a part of. From my abusive mother, to an abusive ex partner I have been through hell.

Never allowed to just be. To exist without someone breathing down my neck, whispering in my ear. Telling me how I will live my life, under their hold…

It's refreshing, and terrifying to finally be free from their grasp.

At 33, I finally have a say in my life and I won't let anyone take that from me.

There will not be another boot on my fucking neck.