please just stop. why do you guys want me to hurt so badly?

Even when I try to be nice, you're all so mean to me! 

Just empty, empty, hollow love that only shows I never deserved the real kind.

Why don't you understand, can't even try to understand, how hopeless it makes me feel?! When you take everything away from me and I don't have any kind of outlet- No, any kind of HOPE!

You just want me to feel this way, you want me to feel so hopeless and unloved as a punishment, but does the punishment even fit the crime?! Would you still feel great about these punishments even if I'm dead?!

...

Of course you would!

It's not abuse, it's a lesson. You're a broken, broken girl. Nothing is ever, nothing WILL ever be good enough for you. Even if you had died, I wouldn't have regretted how I treated you at all.

Just stop.

Stop.

Stop.

Why can't you stop.

Even when I ask you to?

I could beg on my hands and knees and not even a god could make you stop.

What are you trying to achieve? What are you trying to punish or win?

It doesn't matter. 

None of it ever mattered.

You just. Wanted. To hurt me.

You just wanted to hurt me.

You just wanted to hurt me.

You just wanted to hurt me.

You just wanted to hurt me.

You just wanted to hurt me.

You just hurt me, that's all.

How am I supposed to want to live when these are the only people I see in a day to day basis?

How am I supposed to "escape" if my resources don't even care I exist?

Just stop.

Stop. 

stop.
Stop it.

Stop it, all of you, just stop.

Stop.

Stop.

Just stop.

Stop it.

Just stop it.

Please just stop it already.

Stop taking everything away from me.

Stop taking it all away.

You're taking everything I care about away from me.

You're taking it all away.

Stop. 
Just stop.
Why can't you guys just stop?

It doesn't matter if I'm calm or angry, you just want me to hurt.

That's all that there is to it.

And it hurts so much.

It hurts so much, it hurts so much, did you get what you wanted?
Just make it stop.

But you won't.

So I have to.

Just stop. 

Please

Please

please

how many times do i have to ask

please

please

please

please

please

please

just stop

just stop

stop

stop

stop

stop

stop

please stop

none of you ever just stop

why won't you stop

why won't you stop

why won't you stop even when i ask

just stop

stop

stop

stop

please

Please.