my wishes for my future that only the stars can see

i've come to realize there is only one thing i want in my life.

i think about my future and i don't see a fun road trip. i don't see university. i don't see helping others. i don't see children or family. 

i just see an apartment.

with old wood floors and a wooden ceiling fan and white walls faded yellow, bumps and scratches and paintings and stained glass and shutter blinds and my grandmas quilts and plants and everything i like.

figurines and stuffed toys, my Mew, cosplays and my computer and 2000s technology.

avocados and pasta and onions and pork, chili powder, goulash, black bean burgers, slightly overcooked bacon, eggs benny. endless foods that i love, all that i really love. 

only things i love.

that's all i want. that's the only thing i really want--

something that's mine!