I'm accepting that I think I'm genderfluid.

For years I've identified only as a dude but my gender really isn't that strict. Some days I wanna only be a boy and some I only wanna be a girl and some I don't care I just wanna exist without question.

I don't know how to tell my friends and family, I've come out 3 times in my life already so it should be easy?? But it feels so difficult still. ON TOP of that I think I only like girls. I identified as a lesbian before I transitioned and it felt like the perfect label for me, but it felt fake if I were to identify as a man. Now that I feel in the nonbinary catergory, I wouldn't feel like I was a fraud for being a lesbian again. Everyone thought I only liked dudes for 3 years now, something I've NEVER said or confirmed and something that is farthest from the truth xd. 

But I'm trying to accept this big change as my growth, as so my previous gender stages were. This is something that is true to me, something I feel, and if one day I change my mind, that is my future problem, but for now, this really feels right. 

Maybe I'll tell my mum 2day. who knows

Signing off till next blog xd, 

- theonewiththewurlitzer