My love letter for Him

(at the end of school before holidays , I'm gonna send a text to my crush so instead of his name it will be him )

Hey him , 

Tell you only 3 words would be an insukt toward what I feel since now many months. I know your answer but I want you to know all the true , you're not forced to read everything but I care about it. I'm not just gonna say you're handsome even if it's true that you're charming and that your arrogant smile which upset me well end up by attracted me. When I hear your voice my heart beat faster. Maybe it's outmoded to make love letters but iy's the best way to express myself without stammer and act like an idiot. I'd never believed to fall in love with you since this day when you arrived in this middle of History class and that you sat next to me. I expected an annoying guy who act like a lowlife and at the end I fall hard in love. I like to think it's fate which made you sat next to me this day , because you gabe me a reason to go to highschool even with the anxiety. Even if you had girlfriends this year , I couldn't help but to love you. I really tried to stop but this time my heart didn't listen to me. It's stupid but despite everything I wanted to be that person who supports you during your life. I have so much love to give and I'm sure you deserve to be love like I love you. I'll never make a good girlfriend , but I can assure you thzt I'm one of the girls who love you the most. You upset me and disappointed me sometimes... but you're just humand , and I'm not any better. When you told me I'm perfect , I couldn't help but smile because you have no idea how much I hate myself. You made me feel special , you gave me confidence , reassured me. I don't love you because of what you can give me but for what you make me feel and discover. We're different but a part of me believe it could work. I know that after this text we won't talk anymore so I take advantage to tell you everything. Thank you to have saved me. I don't know if I'll live until my 18yo , but I'm sure you'll be a wonderful chapter of my life. A girl like me never have a good ending with the guy she loves. I'm always a second choice or just not a choice at all. I suppose it's what I deserve. By the way , did you know how hot you look when you explain me something ? Your eyes are so intense that I feel myself melting everytime I cross them. It's probably not your thing the love letters, but to respect my feelings I had no choices? If you can tell me why you don't love me ? Because I really tried...

Anyways , I love you him.