The tv is infact glowing..😓

     I don't even know what to call this feeling bro. Like at random times ill just be hanging out with my mom or something and out of NO WHERE ill say "Ill be fine as shit as a boy." And I started it saying a little to much that she told me that if I felt like I wanted to transition she would help me and all that shit.. 

     I said no real fast not in like a bad way but I didn't wanna talk to her about that type of stuff.. I don't like talking to my parents about emotional things. Ill just laugh it off and move on 😓 But every now and then I'm like, "I wish i was a boy", "I wish i was born a boy".  (I say these thoughts to myself not her or anyone..)

     I wish I had a superpower where I can switch between genders.. 😭 IDK. And then I'm like well if I kill myself I could be reborn as a boy. (I'm not going too..) but its like I also don't know if you turn into a ghost after you die.. or if you get reborn as a different person(and even then i could be reborn as a girl.), or go to heaven or hell. 

I could just lowkey be a stud but I don't wanna be a stud I wanna have a slong. 😔 I know im not the only one that has felt this way righttt?..