I need to create

i need to create and create. I have neurodivergency and how it effects me is less satisfaction during the creative process? It's just with anything I suppose. It's a struggle doing things. I lack a lot of discipline to set actions into motion. Doing blogs like this or  typing my thoughts out, I hope it'll help more. What a strange dilemma with my paranoia of writing things in a journal because my parents used to read it, and I fear they'd look through it again. But also, typing here and on public websites, actively setting things on public. I'm quite tired I suppose. Melancholy is the air's flavor and stagnancy is my mood.

How does someone like me improve their discipline? Something to ponder on for now. Logging this is a neat exercise.