Я скучаю по тебе, нет, не скучаю

Crazy . Turning 20 when I first met you and I didn't even know you as a person that well you were just someone I seen as a cool person so odd how time flys by . Little over almost a year now knowing you and over that short amount of time so much has happened not to just me but you as well and getting to know you, we don't talk anymore but I still see from a distance if your ok and check on you through someone else every so often . What we had didn't last that long and I think about that alot as well not saying "take me back " but it has made me come back to everything and how to better myself which I'm sad about obviously but thankful for , that time was hell but at the same time I feel like If you never popped in my life during that time I would of never snapped back into reality so thank you for that . From drinking non stop heavily to having someone comfort me tell me what I needed to hear , I don't ever say thank you for that instead I get mad you left instead of thinking of how it helped so thank you . As well as you , I've seen you grow from the mistakes not to rush things , you take things more seriously instead of always joking , I don't want to sound parasocial on me watching from a distance so all I'll say is I see the change and I'm proud of that . You've got a new girl I was informed when you started talking to her n not even dating now I see your happy with her , she talks like one of the guys it's kinda funny and I see her sometimes talking to ppl in ssm and she seems cool I suppose, glad your happy with her and found someone you can chill with . Feel like I'm writing too much tho this was supposed to be short so I'll cut it here and say thank you N for everything and I mean everything positive or negative thank you for it all , thank you for introducing me to people who genuinely care or cared about me , for helping with a lot or trying to help with whatever I needed being something small or big . If you need anything at all I don't mind helping as a thanks and happy 21st birth mr torta pounder 101 lolz . 

(Ps. Okie so dude this random but I found a baby goose I named him molly butttt turns out u cant have a wild pet baby goose in Ohio n it's illegal, that's such a random thing and weird isnt it ? But molly says happy birthday too and I still watch your streams to gts ^^ my dog yes an actual dog still watches)