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i never really understood asking oh are you mad at me? especially if i made it clear i didn’t like what was said like bro you clearly know something you said upset me yet you fail to address it in any way i cant help but just constantly feel disappointed by those around me and sometimes i do prefer having acquaintances that i see in a controlled environment because after a while, i find myself adding so much more weight to something said by particular set of individuals and i hate it i hate it so much then i feel like shit bc im so sensitive and i know they are too some extent but im just reconsidering my connection with them and i hate to say but that one fuck asd study was right this one small bad thing will most definitely overshadow everything because imma bitch weenie but im not because i will never make someone i love feel lesser thsn what they are to me not even as a joke but also i may not be too innocent myself bc i am like oh ew and blah blah but then again i immediately let them know im kidding or idk i never take it too far or drag it out idk its balanced but hearing something bad from someone you have to basically force good things out of is horrible and my heart is weak