this is definitely a sign

this is gonna be a little TMI but i don't really care 

woke up this morning in a panic because i had only ten minutes to get dressed and ready to go to the hospital to try to get my blood drawn and i also had to piss in a cup so they could check for any potential UTIs but my fuckass hand lost its grip and the damn cup fell into the toilet water so it was essentially contaminated and useless now. 

and this is the fourth fucking time i’ve failed to get my exams done so i just ended up crying, probably because i’ve been getting less sleep than usual and my brain decided now is the time to break. 

i'm gonna try again tomorrow but i swear if anything goes wrong i'm never going to the doctors again, i don't care if i'm in pain all the time for no discernible reason, the universe is clearly trying to tell me that ignorance is bliss. 

anyway -_-;

i also have a dentist appointment today and then i have to take the train to my therapy session. i’ll be gone basically the whole day and wont get back until evening time but hopefully i’ll make it to the city before my last bus to go home. public transportation for the win am i right guys.