Day 25 of speaking that shit through the wire

I was gonna let today slide but then I saw the weekly slap posted and he's my rival now Because I used to watch schlatt all through high school and he was never consistent NOW he's consistent... smh... I will not be outclassed by this utter buffoon who sometimes gives sound advice but whatever, it's not about that! We must win, we're the underdogs, right, Moth Nation???? Anyway I've been busy and I'll be busy later this week again but ill try my best to free up the evening for writing these blogs. I was actually so bored this evening why didn't I think to get this out of the way...

Let's work backwards, I usually work forwards but I don't know where to start so let's back up beep beeeeep beeeeeeep beeeep. Hey, reader, yo mama so fat when her beeper goes off people think she's backing up.

Coffee review - I didn't review this coffee!! It was on discount and it is so strong, I take 2 tsp instant coffee I had to take one tsp for this, it's so strong but it's so nice, they have a less strong Brazilian flavor I had a while ago and that's amazing. Brazilian coffee is so nutty. I love it!! I'd love to go to Brazil sometime. Also this morning, I almost cried because I was making some joe and then fwip! It slipped right out my hand and it's glass! It didn't break somehow, it bounced. But half the pot fell out, better than all of it though. Can I tell yall some addict behavior... I swept it up then I questioned whether or not it was still usable. I threw it out though!! Are you happy?? I'm not! Now I gotta buy more coffee... smshsjrjrbrbr if the rain let's up I'll go to a Cafe Tomorrow.

Reading rain... - rain makes me think of this older woman I follow on twitter and Bob dylan and then both of them so it makes me happy, I think of two things I love anyway yeah she posted a Bob dylan reference once so that's why. The reference was rainy day woman the opener to blonde on blonde so that's why rain makes me think of her, it's not really symbolic or anything, more on her later.... me though I've been reading Jesus and John Wayne as my primary read and Swann's way as my secondary read. Jesus and John Wayne is interesting it's about the mixing of conservativism and Christianity and it's a very slow process that lead to what we have now where a lot of Bible thumpers are Republicans, not all but like a lot. Good book so far. I'm at a more feminist part and I gotta say this book is so well structured because they focus on one topic at a time or one figure like it was the roots then the rise of Billy Graham then feminism the feminism chapter was so good, you guys... then child caring which Ties into feminism then the next chapter will merge the two focus on pathriachy's role in all of this, see?? The structure is goated.

Swann's way is interesting for the way it uses time and memory and nostalgia. If you want an album comparison, professor skye Compares it to Blonde by Frank ocean and I see it. If you want a film comparison, 8½ directed by Frederico Fellini one of the greatest movies ever. I'm still early but this book has me like going damn like guy smoking weed reading the Bible type shit.*

He has some profound things to say. Like we all have a different version of people in our heads which is like NGE but inverse. 

I SPEAK THAT SHIT THROUGH THE WIRE - I hate that Kanye went on his bullshit just after I got into him. Like cmon anyway, here's a little anecdote for you all... I was talking to a friend she was like talking about tormenting a TV show and I was like I should torrent my TV shows! My streaming sites are dropping like flies and direct downloads kinda suck. So i tried torrenting the wire. I failed so bad, idk how I got it wrong, I asked deniz and they had to explain it to me... i had like 4 different undownloaded files for the wire and like two different torrent programs and I had like 3 windows warnings (don't worry, it's fine) I stayed up until... this time 11 pm trying to torrent the wire. I'm gonna start it tomorrow morning!!! Oooh I'm so excited ooh im so excited. Anyway I got it to work this morning finally. I'm starting to get drowsy that's good though!! I gotta speed up sorry.

Insomnia - I say my drowsiness is good because sleep has been a struggle for me these days, I've been staying up until morning, I was legit going to read until I fell asleep just now but I'm glad it's happening.

Rambles - no thoughts head.. head sleepy NO WAIT I have thoughts!!! Im sad, a lot of things made me sad today but that's good let me explain. As a kid or growing up, people always used to tell me i was like a psychopath or some shit it's people's poor understanding of neurodivergence basically and I didn't believe that but I was always like whenever I felt something I wish I was feeling more of it so like as a kid I was always a bit Glad to be sad. I'm glad to yearn, I'm not yearning now but I am sad. Trying to understand why is like idk but I got it's a mix of a few things as per the usual, this one is kind of dumb but I've got this one friend, I love them (platonically) dearly and like they were sad so now I'm sad. It's not my business to share as to why but like it made me want to cry and give them a hug. Then I watched professor skye this evening, he spoke about Mac Miller's new album and I liked Mac Miller thought he had a nice flow and his new album is top notch. Hearing skye break it down made me so sad, like the ways that drugs took over his life completely and you can hear it and it's not like he excused himself no, he criticized his own drug use, he didn't want to influence anyone else to take after him in that regard and I realized we really lost someone great. I remember someone telling me "he was an ass anyway" okay??? Because he was slightly rude sometimes means that his loss means nothing?? Cruel world we live in... 

Recommendation - uhh Blue Lines by Massive Attack there's a great cover of Be thankful for what you got, that's one of my favorite songs. Whole album is good btw. Check it out. 

Anyway good night! And o Doyle rules! That's a reference to the final verse on song pinata by Freddie Gibbs the verse was done by Mac Miller and is a reference to Billy Maddison