Beer

There was a movie that I read a brief summary of while I debated whether I would watch it or not. No clue what the title is, had that guy who played Hannibal Lector in the series where he was gay - it was about a bunch of teachers who decide to just start teaching rolling deep in the drink to make it manageable.

I'm working at a damned mcdonalds again. I'm at the lowest part of the barrel, scraped the sides, now I'm at the bottom working my way up.

I pre-game every shift with a couple of beers, occasionally I drive home and then drink a beer or two on break and then drive back.

Everybody goes out for twenty minutes on closing shift and smokes weed, or they eat gummies and edibles just to get through the day.

I steer clear of liquor, it fucked me up a bit back in the day - but beer. The liquid bread of life. I love the stuff.

Anyways, I'm writing this to let everybody know that I got a bad burn on my hand last night cleaning the grill, but I didn't go to the ER or report it because if you pre-game shifts like I do, or ensure that you have a non-zero blood alcohol level at work, like I do, reporting an injury will get you drug and alcohol tested, and if they find anything you'll get no payday and kick in the ass out the door.

Also I've never drove drunk, but buzzed driving is the stuff of legends. Never had sex, but I'm certain that sex could never compare to the feeling of being about four beers deep and just fucking gunning it down the backroads - you know where all the speed traps are and the cops can't justify driving down this road so all you gotta watch for is deer. For that brief moment that feels like it's all been years in the making - it feels like it'll never end and you hope it never will. The sun will never rise, you're trapped by choice in a land of eternal twilight and moonlight exclusively. Everclear's blaring on the radio, the fireflies, the stars, the moon, and your headlights are the only lights that can cut through the black of the night - and for a brief moment you shut off the headlights and bask in the unfiltered beauty of God's creation.

I live, I am alive, and I feel as though I will never die.

I will never die.