chronic pain

dont have anyone to talk to so I'm throwing my whining into the spacehey void

dealing with constant circulation problems lately. cant catch a break :/ my feet hurt so bad. I cant walk on one side but putting all this pressure onto the other is making THAT hurt now.

and nobody will listen to me!! I cant even advocate for myself cuz I dont have an ID. the neglect goes crazy and I know once it gets bad enough for me to be hospitalized (just like last time) my dad STILL isnt gonna care.

hes just gonna bitch and moan that I'm taking up his precious time he could be using to play video games on his day off. dude I cant walk!!

he leaves me suffering until the problem gets so bad that it blows up, instead of just fixing it when it was smthn small. it's been WEEKS i cant stand it (no pun intended). I'm in constant pain i cant do shit i need to do and hes still getting onto me for not doing chores and stuff. I've had to ask my brother to make food for me cuz i cant. get. up. 

it's not laziness I'm in horrible pain. but noooo god forbid anybody but my dad is in pain cuz he hurt his back 3 fucking decades ago. sorry u didnt wanna deal with it! 

I'm so close to crying to my sister or grandmother or SOMEOME cuz I'm losing my quality of life and nobody seems concerned whatsoever.