Blood on the Brain.

Why would you lie. I loved you once, I truly did. Sometimes I feel like I still do, but I shouldn't. You ruined my life, the reason why I'm fucking insane. If I come crosses with you again, I think I'll lose my mind. I never want to hear your name fall from anyones lips again, you disgust me. I despise you with every core of my body but yet I still yearn for the way you treated me. That wasn't love, but I never really gave you love now did I? You made me into a monster as you're probably living at the greatest right now. I hate you more than anything, but I miss you. That lie that always fell from your mouth is now true. I am a monster, I asked nicely for you to give me what I wanted. But you made me behave like an animal, how disgusting you are. Why do I mourn for you still, is this normal? I can't even continue on with my love life and life in general without you coming into mind as if I'll get treated like that again.