17.05.2025 Saturday

If I have to stay scrappy, quick, fast

I'd want a sharp, tall and thin body. The raven equivalent of man. Not too twinky, but not wide at all. Survival and wit.

If I get to rest, grow, and be safe

I'd want to have a lot of muscle and fat. Not in a buff masculine guy way, but kind of like a polar bear. I'd be tall and warm, comfortable, never needing to jump like a pebble in water. Like the american military without the violence or abuse. Big enough to scare away, never needing to fight, always being able to if needed. I'd rest well, eat well, and be safe. A dream deeper than any other. An eventual need. Maybe, I cold even love someone. Maybe, I'll never get to. But I'd be much more capable of it. Much more okay.

I might

change theriotypes then. I'm not sure how I'd feel. I'm not sure if I truly even want to look like that, or it's just the physical ability to be safe enough to do so that seems so appealing to me. I just feel it's not very raven-like to be a polar bear. Ignore this, at this point, I lost my thought in itself.

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