01.12 - 18.05.25 late night thoughts

wowzers. today was interesting!!

i honestly felt a bit drained and disconnected from the world recently. im not doing the best with my social life aswell as my emotional and mental health. i wish i could have the weight lifted off my shoulders and take it easy for a bit, that was my plan | i had a full schedule all planned out within the next few weeks/months like cosplay cons, meet ups and just fun things in general!! i love being who i am

nowadays i just cope with things going around me and i just survive

plus my dad broke his foot (°▽°) so suddenly i have everything to do in this fucking house!! i dont know why my family would put the burdens and everything else on the youngest most inexperienced member like im some miracle worker that learns everything at lightning speed, i cant even read good goddamnit!!

its okay because now ill be walking to classes more frequently, which means more exercise and that means ill be able to fit into my outfits flawlessly!! im just gaslighting myself at this point fml

its just that i havent been feeling so well recently, and im struggling with trying to get through this.