14.05.2025 Wednesday

My body woke me up at 3:53, a comfortable amount of time before my mother said she'll be coming down to make food. She said 4, it wakes up just before. I deeply appreciate it for that.

chatting with amino. he's in social studies. I'm on a blanket, on the bathroom floor, with another blanket over me.

04:28

AP German was good. Missed almost all of school. I feel good. Might get a 4. Probably a 3. The shadows around my eyes get more dramatic. Im exhausted but happy. The pouring rain felt good on my body. I rested calmly on the bus with my clothes all soaked. Back to the bathroom floor now. Home greeted me with 2 tajik beef sambusas and a bowl with a bit of jellybeans and a chocolate ball. I saw a ladybug young crawling around the room. We can hide from the cold outside together. Said good night to amino. All is well.

17:00

Talking to amino is like drinking alcohol for the first time

and waiting

until you can take just one more drink.