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I feel kind of lonely. I doubt a lot of my friends even like me or they just feel bad for me, I can hardly believe someone genuinely likes being my friend.
I’m really loud and joyful on the outside but I feel like I act like that because no one will like me or want to be my friend if I act like I want to sometime. Sometimes I just want to be quiet and exist in my own world. Sometimes I just want everyone to disappear and be by myself. But I like my friends, I enjoy being with people at the same time even though I feel lonely sometimes.
Sometimes I think I’m faking not wanting to be with people to try and make myself interesting; I doubt my feelings and tend to minimize things because I’m scared I’m just exaggerating everything.
Sometimes I feel like I’m performing for others but sometimes I just genuinely act extroverted because I’m comfortable enough and feel welcomed to be myself around my friends.
I guess what I’m trying to say is that I might be overthinking what other might think of me and why I act how I do
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catduck
I think most people are more hateful towards themselves than others are. I'm sure man that there would be lots of people who would vibe with you as a friend. And would really like you, because different people like different types of people.
wowzerg
It’s normal to feel lonely or like you are playing a character for ppl. identifying when you’re overthinking is helpful. I’m no therapist or expert on anything, this is just an internet strangers advice. Focus on healthy ways to improve, and take your mind off the subject, physically, emotionally, spiritually or socially, even if by tiny tiny amounts. Try to get your mind off things- read a book outside, write down 10 things ur grateful for, go on a walk, pray, or try making a new healthy recipe or smth. If you need to think things through, writing down your thoughts on paper can be very helpful. I don’t know u or ur situation, this is all very broad advice of things that work for me,and maybe hopefully you to :)