I feel lost (life dump)

I guess sometimes I feel lonely and kind of lost of where my direction of life will go. I’m going to College but not the one that I wanted to attend

I have a psychologist but it’s very recently that I started seeing her so I don’t feel the confidence to tell her what I feel deeply inside of me, just not comfortable enough to do so yet. 

Sometimes I like my friends and sometimes I hate them or I just wish I could be at a school where having no friends was an option, I just can’t what to go to college and make new friends. I feel like my current friendships are not real, I hardly believe anyone can like me.