How is this even possible?

How is this even possible? I can’t fucking understand it.

How do I know it’s over, that we’ll never be together again, yet I still care about her so much? I’m ready for anything. I’d do anything for her.

I’d die for her. I’d ruin my health for her. I’d stay up for days if she needed me. I really would.

But it’s just not possible anymore. Not between us.

And maybe I know that, but I don’t fucking believe it.

If I truly believed it, would I still love her this much? Probably not. Or maybe... maybe I just don’t want to believe it.

I want to believe that someday we’ll be together again.

I want to...

But she has a new boyfriend now. And there are other things too. Things that make it impossible for us to be in a relationship again.

But somehow, I just don’t care. Somehow, I’m still willing to do anything to be with her.