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I just don’t know why I’m living anymore.
I know what I need to do daily, I know what I want to achieve but I just don’t have a reason anymore.
I dotn have a reason to keep fighting for that.
I had her. I was fighting for her. To become good enough for her, to be good enough for her when we were together.
Not anymore.
I’m just fighting for nothing… and if I’m fighting for nothing how can I continue fighting?
I’ve tried setting some goals and fighting more myself but it’s just like.. what’s the point?
I don’t care about those goals. Yeah, they are good, they’d feel good. But they’re empty. They’re just a substitute for her.
I can try to distract myself however I want but at the end of the day I know what I want. Her.
And I can’t fight for her. It’s not possible anymore.
And I don’t know what to do.
I have no fuckign idea what I’m going to do. I dotn know what to fight for… there is nothing to…
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♡ jovi 🐹
(said with love) find some hobbies. whats something youve been interested in but just havent found the time or energy to look into? is there a certain animal or plant or something that you love? books? movies? cultures? start researching the hell out of your interests. branch out a little to related things and find more interests! its ok to still feel depressed and sad, its ok to still struggle. but try to keep yourself occupied. find something to get passionate about, whether it's something like conservation, human rights, something worthwhile. even when im at my lowest, being into things like that gives me something to focus on and put thought and love and energy into. you WILL feel better. you WILL recover. all you need to do is climb out of your hole. it takes time and work but its worth it <3
bisia
you don't have to have a purpose to keep living
Of course. I agree with you. And I'd never kill myself if you think that that's what I'm implying. I mean that I just feel like there's no point anymore. If that makes sense... It's like I'm just existing. With nothing I look forward to and nothing I'm working towards.
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