I feel empty without you S...

Yknow, it doesn't really matter what happens.

It doesn't matter how much I fuck with my health, how much I blast loud music into my ears or how much I distract myself with work or whatever.

I just fucking feel empty without you.

Yeah, sometimes it does work. Sometimes I do feel better about myself and my life.

But the reality is that im fucking miserable.

No one is fun to talk to.

Nothing is fun to do.

Nothing is truly enjoyable anymore.

The only fucking reason I'm still doing anything other than just laying in bed and watching fucking reels is to forget about you.

And the truth is that I can't.

I fucking cant.

I miss you. I want you. I love you.

I don't know how I was so fucking blind and scared to just tell you that. I don't know, I don't fucking know.