life is genuinely so incredibly beautiful

for background, this past week i have almost entirely abandoned my phone. my screentime is less than an hour every day on it, and even that <hour is just made up of the essential functions. 

it may sound stupid, but i feel so much more at peace and in-tune with the world right now. 

the reason im making this post is because i was just laying in bed, reading, when i heard my mom excitedly yell to me from the living room. "Megan!!! Look out your window!!!"

i got up and looked out, and there was a fireworks show happening, way off in the distance. i just stood there and watched, probably for a full 5 minutes. i didnt move, i didnt grab a phone to video it, i just breathed in the air around me and let myself be transfixed. i just kept thinking about how i was alive in that moment.

standing in my room, watching fireworks for someone i dont know, miles away. my family in the other room, excitedly reacting to the show and exclaiming when a particularly pretty one went off.

there is room for poetry somewhere in this, and when im feeling particularly romantic, i will write it.

i guess im making this post to encourage the people around me to be in the moment more. but ill get off my soapbox; im also just making it to just share my experience lol. 

find joy in the simple things. i know that can be hard sometimes, hell do i KNOW it can be hard sometimes. but try your best. not everything is a far off, mysterious fireworks show, but everything can still be grand. 

once, i started keeping notes of small things in life i would notice and appreciate. those notes are now long lost to time, but i remember a few.

-the act of tying your shoes

-cable television

-wearing a book out to its bearest of bones

i think its good to be aware of the daily things you often overlook. i recommend it.

in a loosely related vein, when i walk on the sidewalk and see a bug overturned and still alive, i will flip it over. Regardless of my fear of insects, and regardless that it is probably destined for death anyways based on the fact that it couldnt get up, i flip them over. thats a small, insignificant thing, but it still deserves my attention.

im not quite sure how to end this. after all, it was basically just word vomit of sentimental slop lol. i guess ill leave you with my favorite ferris bueller quote, because it applies pretty well in my opinion. 

"Life moves pretty fast. You don't stop and look around once in awhile... you could miss it."