May 7th 2025

I’ve been telling myself I need to journal for like the past 3 days now and I’m just now getting to it. Pre-That-Time-Of-The-Month exhaustion is hitting me on top of being as a current job I dislike with people who are just as miserable. 

BUUUUUUUT! 

I do have a job interview tomorrow, it’s at the place I work out in. It’s not a gym, it’s like a community center. Your typical basketball gym, swimming pool, weight room, indoor track. It’s like- a smaller- less cash grabby version of a YMCA that’s been there since I was like 9? Maybe even longer. 

It’s for an assistant position, and to be honest I can’t even tell you what the position is for I totally didn’t read the job description? I was so desperate to get the hell out of the medical field that I just applied immediately. Granted, I’ve been working in the medical field both retail and hospital for about 6 years now. Of course I have basic professional skills like data entry, communication with customers and teams, yadda yadda yadda. But other than that I have no clue what the position is for ( I guess I should totally try to look up a job description.) 

I can’t lie I’m worried, I’m trying not to picture myself walking in here Friday and yelling to my boss IM PUTTING IN MY TWO WEEKS SUCKA because if I don’t get it I will be absolutely crushed. But at the same time I don’t want to manifest disappointment either. I’ve been in a really bad spot with luck as of late and I really really want to believe that this is the spot that’s gonna turn it around. I’ve been going back and forth with Justin ( not really he sent me like 2 emails) and he said I was a great fit but- I mean he could’ve said that to anybody! Also the fact that the position has old advertisements really concerns me, what if the job is super shitty. Don’t get me wrong. Pharmacy is big shitty and I’m willing to do anything to get out of it but I don’t want to be equally or just as miserable at another job you know? 

I think I’m putting too much thought into it. All I’m saying is that I want change. I’ve been in the pharmacy field for almost 6 years now; way longer than I expected. I thought I could take my history degree and go everywhere and prove to everyone that my degree isn’t useless it’s just ehhhhh particular. I’ve spoken about this before, how every museum position I’ve applied to in my field down here has had no luck ( I think I’m in the wrong state to be hired for this, I wanna move back to a city where I can see a beach?…Charleston maybe?…) So I’m hoping this new job in the city I live in will be a golden ticket to save up so I can move. It would be no more hour drive to and from work the drive would only be like 10 minutes, and I would be paid up to 2 dollars more than I am now? I WANT IT so badly. 

I’m not gonna think about it, or atleast try to because I don’t want to set myself up for disappointment. I think I should reshape it as, I should be proud of the steps and even being considered in a position like that in the first place. 

I am also getting my hair done tomorrow in a very very queer hairstyle by the way. You might have noticed I have no profile picture on this account that’s because I’m waiting to post this super cool hairstyle. 

But just in case you don’t know what I look like? I’m black so be nice. 

Random switch in topic but I’m typing this at work and I’m wondering how this bagel I got yesterday is gonna taste. Can you reheat and eat a bagel? Would that shit be nasty? Who cares imma just have to try it and if I don’t like it now we know. 

What’s upcoming for me? Well, Friday I’m gonna try to contact the place I’m doing drum lessons at and get back on schedule, how am I supposed to be the greatest drummer in the world if I haven’t practiced consistently in months! I think I also mentioned in my last blog that I’m getting into hoodoo? I got a meeting at the end of May and you can bet that’s gonna be an interesting blog entry. I’m not gonna tell you guys everything, I respect the practice but you’ll hear something from me like “it was sooo different.” You know. Without revealing secrets of the ancestors for years. That is a practice I will absolutely have to gatekeep. Sorry culture vultures. 

I lied, I have one thing to say about leaving this job if I do. I’ll be happy to get away from miserable people. Did I say that already? Well I really really mean it. 

I guess I’m running out of things to talk about. Maybe I’ll play monster hunter this weekend and continue to watch FaceOff, that old syfy show about extreme makeup artists I love that shit. I need to get back on track with one piece also, I’m in Dressorosa and I know that shit is long. 

Seeya for now.

You’ll know the results of my job and where I’m at the next blog entry. This was nice! I’m typing this from my phone! Hello world! My brain feels a little less full, I wish I could just push everybody out for a weekend and just live in silence ( I say this as if I desire it but then I get really lonely. Ahhh I just hate sticking to a schedule of having to hang out every week.) 

I’m ranting, that’s for another blog post. Relationships are interesting. Seeya!