Internet Diary 30#

Does anyone actually take the question “do you think the glass is half full or half empty” seriously, I’ve always thought that it was a stupid question that never matters. 

That’s why I never thought about it and when I was asked that today I was entirely confused and just picked “glass half full” because that’s what I always heard in media like TV shows.

Anyways 

I went to the dentist yesterday and I have to get so much work done with my teeth because my dumbass has bleeding gums and other problems that I don’t entirely understand. 

Luckily on the 20th of this month I’m gonna go to the same place where my dad goes to for his teeth, which kinda makes me scared.

Kinda off topic, when the dentist were talking to my father about my teeth, the doctor says he thinks the reason why my teeth isn’t getting better is because of acid (the type of acid like stomach acid) is affecting it.

My stomach still has been hurting and today I only could have a few tiny bites of what I was eating at lunch. Anyways, the dentist and my dad thinks I have stomach issues (I forgot what it was specifically called) like my mom did. 

Whenever I run a mile and I’m done running I have to spit A LOT of saliva (it’s disgusting and like thick, it isn’t like a normal spit) and I’m pretty sure the acid from my spit is affecting my teeth because of it. 

My spit is not something recent that happened, way back before I was even a high schooler this had been happening. 

I have a doctor’s appointment this month too now because of it.

I don’t know if I’m ever telling the truth about what I’m feeling and I feel like a crazy person for not being able to speak the truth.

I also can’t stop myself from smiling when someone says something that I think is true and bad about me. Seriously it’s so annoying because like it’s not funny at all or something that I should be happy about.

I understand that I should fix myself for others, and not myself since I know I’m worthless and always will need support in some sort of way to even function.

I’ll stop my rant now since I’m just repeating what I say too often.