May 5 2025

I have no motivation in general rn, and no motivation in life. My mom is there for me to reach out a hand and give me to mental help i need, but as much as I want to preserve my comfort and mom’s knowledge of the state I am right now, I can’t help but push myself further until I reach my goals. But I’ll always end up sliding back down the mountain, choosing something to regret over and blame. I hope that I’ll be the big independent girl I wish to be in the future, if the economy is doing good. I just want to live in the 2000’s or 2010’s, honestly. I want to become a worker that sells or delivers CDs but nobody really buys them anymore. The only paths that I could see for myself right now is psychology, nursing, and being a housewife, and I know damn well that I’m not going to go well with any of those choices. We all have to provide to society at one point, but why can’t i do it in my own way, where I could be happy?