i’m getting older

i know, i’m only 14. but i feel like i’m getting older every day.

next week, my brother is going to graduate from college. crazy right? i remember when me and him used to share a room when he was in 8th grade. my sister is already working at a job at my own school and i’m becoming a freshman in high school. i feel like everyone’s getting older and it’s kinda crazy. 

i often wonder if my older siblings miss it when they were young. because i do. even though i’m only 14, i miss times when i was 10. i already made a post about me getting emotional over nostalgia so i recommend you read that to get to know my own “lore”, i guess? 

everyone in my family is getting older and it’s honestly making me sad. especially cause my own family is super fucked up, i wouldn’t say dysfunctional, but it’s not great at this moment. i wanna go back to when we lived in that old house with those cold floors, before mom became blonde and before nobody was in college. i miss who they were, man.