imlikealawyer

i only keep myself this sick in the head cause i know how the words get you off ugh pete wentz i need to see inside ur brain

prom so soon eek! im going to dye my hair dark blue cause i know itll look good, i have leftover hairdye from before, and im bored. also, im wearing a dress. its not how i pictured my prom but it looks nice and it gets me out of dealing with a disappointed mom. i figured out how i can bind in it, which helps at least, and its hopefully the last time i will ever have to wear a dress. earlier i couldnt stop thinking about how i wish i had a date and picking out a pretty corsage and making sure it matched her dress and and and

its been a long time since ive had a real crush. i think ive had maybe two, in elementary school and middle school. at least i think so, honestly im not sure if even both of those were real. ive had small crushes since then, or hallway crushes, more like something to keep myself occupied rather than actually wanting to date someone. i get really jealous when i see the guys in my class with their girlfriends, or when i watch a movie with teenagers who fall in love, or when my friends talk about cute boys and their horrible awful situationships. not that i want to be the annoying couple who kisses in the hallway or led on by a teenage boy with a bowl cut or anything i just wish i could relate. 

i wish there was more movies with trans guys in it. juno from juno is literally a trans man and also me except im not pregnant. i love elliot page hes part of the reason i came out. xoxo