failed merch

i tried to make my own band merch tonight and it just looked fucking stupid . it was the fucking ‘paramore a band’ shirt hayley williams made with a fucking sharpie that’s it. why am i so fucking useless. i can’t do anything correct. how tf do you mess that up. i can’t diy anything i suck at all of it. i’m literally not allowed to be happy there’s some sick rule about it. why can’t i be happy. why can’t i have good things. what can i make anything  good for myself. i was born shit, i’ll die shit.