updates on stuff maybe

I forgot to write this down last time, but I finally cleaned my room. I can walk freely again and there's no dust in my desk, I'm happier now. Also, classes are back and I've never felt so chill about it. I still have no friends there and I don't casually talk to anyone but I'm starting to accept that and the idea of being the mysterious/weird/cool girl that no one knows anything about is kinda awesome, I don't know. Staying alone isn't so bad, and I still have friends and family to talk with. I fucking love my friends and family.

Speaking of lonelyness, a part of me just yearns to be that person walking alone on the street somking a cigarette after a bad day. I don't know why but it just seems really peaceful to me. Maybe I'm mentally unstable or something. I'm not planning on going to a psychologist or getting a diagnosis anyway.

Shor blog cause I have homework to avoid getting done.

Song of the day: It's Golden Hour Somewhere by Lovejoy (I'm not their fan anymore after what happened but I can't stop coming back to their songs. Don't support them! The link is for a YT video with the lyrics only, not the official channel)