LFMAO

holy shit i am a horrible friend and sibling and relative and anything related to me how do i honestly expect anything to go well when i don’t believe anything said to me i will love a person to death and try (TRY) to show ir the best i can but as soon as they do something back i can’t believe it even for a second and then when i make up shir in my head i prepare for the worst which lowkey saves me most of the time but when will i ever allow myself feel genuinely wanted and understood when all i do is think oh they are here w me bc xy&&z or bc they want something from me i act dramatically to see what another person will do i hate when i do stuff twjy dont like and its honestly so reprehensible and disgusting bc i respect peoples boundaries but i crave being wanted unconditionally but when will that ever be realistic AND wokld i even want that?? Tajt would mean im just woth a shell of a person and i love struggling ireally do i love being pathetic and yearning silently and loudly and nobody is gonna stop me and maybe i will end up alone like i fear but ita okay nobody is gonna take away my emotions that i have been feeling and actually enjoying as of late just when i step back snd think i start typing shit like this so let me not ywah let me chill and allow us to speak for our