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eeeek gym class heroes near me! and not outrageously expensive so i might actually be able to go, we will see. none of my friends like the music i like so idek who i would bring but i can figure that out later. everyone listen to clothes off rn

also how come cool people only come up and talk to me when im with my mom. today a cute girl complemented me while i was looking at shoes with my mom and omfg. i have no game its embarrassing. i am anything but nonchalant

idk why im thinking about this rn but honestly i get so confused when i think about my sexuality that i end up just ignoring it lmao. in middle school i was so confident that i was a lesbian, but then just as i was starting to accept myself it turned out im actually a guy, which sorta changed everything. when i was younger i used to tell my parents i would never get married. i always assumed i would be the bride marrying the groom because i didnt think i had any other choice, but just thinking about it made me feel awful. it took me awhile to realize that what i hated was being the bride, not having a groom. maybe too personal, but the more i look back on my childhood the more i realize how anxious and dysphoric i was all of the time lol i wish i couldve just grown up as a boy

anyways, who knows. surely not me. it doesnt really matter to me anymore, i have bigger things to deal with. this kinda turned into venting even though i just wanted to talk abt gch. xoxo