Extinguish my troubles

What if I messed up and people blame me or they ignore me what can I do! Im actually more afraid of death more than hate but at the end of the day I will still fear both of those things! I don't understand when people say that they don't fear death, you'll one day lose everything and your memories and people! To a never ending slumber, sounds terrifying! I know I'm not suppose to worry about it now but I'm conscious! I do things and think and experience! It's torture! Being born was never a blessing! I'm not mature and don't know what to think about it other than to just judge it! Nothing's wrong with me why am I worrying! That's just just not right! I can't figure out why I'm like this, why I'm so scared about the unknown and the uncertain!