Current bitching and thoughts

After that family trip thing I'm even more depressed 

I see my monster father in my younger brother more and more and my mother continues to enable it.

I wish I had the fucking recourses to be able to do something like getting my brother the therapy he so fucking needs but I don't. In two years he'll be an adult and by that time even if I do than have recourses to get him to therapy he'll reject it say he's fine and go down the same rabbit hole our monster of a father did

I feel so lost

Even if he's already a Lil shit he's still my brother and I love him to bits and it just hurts so much seeing him getting worse and worse with the fucking help of our mother..... idk what to fucking do anymore. 

I cant just stand there and see him decline like that but at the same time I don't have the resources to help in any way and I cant get through to him anymore while my mother is over his shoulder just enabling the same behaviors that turned our father into the abusive monster he was while still alive

Apologies for the rant but I seriously have no person to confide in any longer without feeling like im just adding more trouble than it's worth to their already ful plate of bs that life has decided to unfortunately throw at them