depressive episode (what season is this?)

I think I'm losing my mind

I mean not really but I have so much brain fog that I have a constant fatigue headache so

I highly doubt anyone reads my blogs, but it's a nice place to put thoughts and life updates into the void.

I'm writing a book. an album, and a life plan all at the same time right now. But these past couple days? All I've done is cry. Someone will ask if I am okay and I just have to shake my head and try not to immediately start bawling.

we on the struggle bus boys!! and it's not stopping for gas anytime soon!!

I have a secret Tumblr blog where I post venting type stuff. I say secret. my boyfriend knows about it, and sometimes will check on it to see how I am really doing. but No one follows it so I feel free to post the more triggering and raw shit that is in my brain and needs a place to go.

but here? this website?

while I technically have a couple friends on here, no one reads my blog. and most of those friends don't even use spacehey anymore. my partner and boyfriend don't even know that this website exists.

that's freeing, in a way. to have a space that feels nostalgic and also my own.

idk where I'm going with this.

I'm depressed idk